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Tuesday, September 16, 2008

The first kiss and ex.

Hmm, 16 years. I wasn't quite happy. Thats a lie, but at least I knew what it felt like.

Met him at one of those holiday lesson kinda place.Had a crush on the guy or kinda liked him. We talked almost everyday and he called me "his girl" but the dude never asked me out aka no commitment, He was going to university in the States the next week and begged that we see. By the way, our 6 month relationship was purely cellphone based. Not because of my curfews but because I was kinda suspicious along the way.

So close to the time he was leaving, I tried to just quit any investing of puppy emotions for him but it was hard. He came to visit me in a place I hung out and we talked for a bit after not seeing each other for a while. I had to rush back home and then, just like that it happened. He pulled me close and planted his small lips on mine. I pushed him lightly and he wanted to go on since he wouldn't see me again (so American highschool summer fling-ish...not in Abuja dearie!). I don't know why I let him for 3 more seconds pushed him and ran down the stairs to leave the building. he sent me a text saying "F*&$ Ur beautiful and when we kissed, i swear....blah blah."

The next time I saw him, I promise you devil na winch, I let him kiss me again and then he entered full makeout mode with his hands tryna go the wrong direction and I really pushed him with a "don't touch my assets!" reaction. I sent him a text later that he wasn't what I thought he was a and he's reaction "don't people that like eachother makeout?" My qualms was that he called me his girl but never asked me out officially and was gonna leave Nigeria in a week so GOODY goody or not no Makeouts from any 16yr old girl who supposedly hates boys.

I felt raped. Considering where i stood on morals and standards, I never planned this would ever happen to me. I thought it was for silly girls only so I cried, was restless and felt used and abused. Now, i thank God he opened my eyes and i can't say I regret the experience.

After he left 9ja, he called my like once in 3months. I just fashed him until one day we were chatting online and he starts telling me he really liked me and didn't see any girls and accused me of thinking that he wanted to sleep with me. Then he told me he never wanted to have anthing to do with me. Hiss!! Jerk-mode! Thats By the way. (More gist on this guy!)

A FEW YEARS AFTER, I'm over the whole fling-situation and have a respectful boo.

Once you pop you can't stop. Now, I'm way too comfortable snogging my babe though I always try to remain within the proper limits.

Citing this example, Lord, please lemme abstain till marriage! No popping for me!

12 comments:

Temite said...

Ummmm,this guy def does not sound like a good potential boyfriend. Im curious - how old are u now?

James Tubman said...

good luck

you know what they say

you never forget your first

but it seems like you are doing a good job though

Chari said...

Amen to your prayer mehn....

SOLOMONSYDELLE said...

Nice blog! First time here and will be back!

PS: can you get rid of the word verification thing? Thanks!

NIGERIAN CURIOSITY
IT WAS SO MUCH EASIER WHEN I ONLY HAD ONE...

For the love of me said...

Once you've really really made up your mind, the rest becomes easy.All the best

rethots said...

"No popping for me!" Hmmm, a tough one but, not unachievable.

Femi B said...

once you pop you can't stop...is it pringles??? Good luck with the abstinence...must have strong will and learn ways to compromise...lol

Femi B said...

by the way thanks for the hype...maybe i'll run for gov..one day one day.

Buttercup said...

Awww...oh well, its all in the past now!

Goodluck with ur decision o!

But I Care said...

Lol... I can completely relate to your blog. We have way too much stuff in common, plus I am too young to even think about marraige

ps: I am also a virgin....*big secret is our now*

hehe

doll said...

LOL. I had one guy too that neva asked me up growing up but always chased me up and down the stairs to touch me, I think that was the first guy that called me a prude. LOL. As per thewhole once u pop u cant stop thingy its kinda true cuz wat will be ur motivating force for stopping?

miz-cynic said...

i had a post 2 bt wt was supposd 2 b my first kiss frm my 1st bf then.he was a rily sweet guy thou.i regret i didnt allow him kiss me.i was 16 then 2.dis boy rily lovd me o.he used 2 help me out with my chores.